I think it has just hit me that I will become a mother again 1 month from today. I think I was in a state of shock. I'm somewhat disappointed in myself that I wasn't screaming or freaking out when I got the phone call. I was so wanting it to be earlier... Now that I've had some time to think about it and let it sink in, I am in awe. It's absolutely surreal. And you know what if I'm traveling over Christmas or I spend more money than I had planned on airfare...it's OK. We can have an awesome Christmas when we get back. I really am hoping that we can get back by Christmas, but if we don't, I'm sure everyone will wait for us...won't you?